Friday, February 17, 2017

Where Do I Start?

It's been so long since I posted anything...I don't even know where to start. Life is crazy, hectic, upside down for me right now. I'm hoping to start blogging again for ME. To help me get things out of my brain and down onto the screen? ( I wanted to say on to paper...but that doesn't work here...) Maybe getting things out will help me to process. I don't feel like I'm ready...but this tiny post is a step in the right direction.

Thursday, February 5, 2015

I think I'm ready for a change...pretty much a word vomit.

I don't know what my issue has been lately. I feel like maybe I could just write everything and everyone off and just run away. It's just something I can't shake. I get so, so tired of pasting a smile on my face and pretending everything is okay. It's not. One thing I know for sure is that the wrong thing to do is run away. I'm tired of being the only responsible person in my family. I feel like I'm constantly parenting my parents and my siblings. I'm tired of being the only one who tries in these relationships. I'm frustrated because I feel like every one has this expectation of me, that I'm supposed to be the one who cleans every thing up. I'm tired of picking up everyone else's pieces. I'm tired of putting everyone before myself. My relationship with my mom, my brother and my sister has failed. That's damn hard to accept. It's even harder not to run to their rescue as they're failing. I have two options in this situation...I can choose to be upset/sad or I can choose to be angry. Unfortunately, I think I've chosen the angry side. Maybe it's easier to be angry than weepy? I don't know. I know that this whole thing is affecting my work, my friends and my home. I need to shake it...I just wish it was that easy. Aaaaaaannnnnnnnnddddddd...I think that's enough word vomit for the day.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Influenster's #Vasoline Vox Box

I got the opportunity to try out some super hydrating #vaseline lotion from Influenster, for free! All they ask is for me to share my opinion with the world!

I was excited to try out this lotion as I had run out of lotion at my desk and was needing to get something new. The person who works beside me can't handle lotions with fragrance, so I was super stoked that this was fragrance free. And it really was. I was a little nervous to try out the Vaseline brand. I thought it was going to either leave my skin sticky or slick. That definitely wasn't the case...this is some of the most hydrating lotion that I've ever used. The soap at work leaves my skin super so dry that during the winter, with the dry air, my finger tips would start to crack. I'm so grateful that I've found something that leaves my skin smooth, hydrated and crack free!.

We ended up purchasing a bottle for at home too. My husband likes to use it on his tattoos, he says it makes them stand out.

I would definitely recommend this product to anyone looking for a hydrating, fragrance free lotion.

NesCafeUSA and Coffeemate

Every so often, I get the chance to check out new products. I recently got the opportunity from and NesCafe to try a new Coffeemate product (free of charge, only want my opinion!)

So I was very interested in trying out this product, because I'm all about coffee. Love the stuff, some days I think it's the only thing that keeps me going.

I have to admit, I didn't read the instructions before I tried it out. I thought it was something that I added TO MY COFFEE...but it wasn't. It's something that you use AS coffee. I kept adding and adding thinking that it was going to chill the coffee out. It smelled like hot chocolate and it was delicious. It was even more delicious once I figured out that didn't need coffee...only hot water.

This will be the perfect thing to take camping this Summer...all I'll need to do it boil some water and POOF! need to bring grounds, filters, sugar or creamer...this is an all in one product. I've found it on the shelves at my local Fred's down the aisle with the coffee and filters :) Give it a shot!

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

This blogging thing is weird...

So there is probably about 20-30 blogs that I follow closely...and while I don't "know" these people, I've never met them in real life, I feel like I do know them. I read all the things they post. I have watched their kids grow. And heck, in some cases, I've watched them grow.

Then I go to comment on something and sometimes I feel weird about it. I get excited when I read a pregnancy post...but I don't know this woman. But I am genuinely excited to watch her grow and see this baby. I get sad when I see them struggle and I want to reach out and offer support, but who am I to them?

I realize that these blogs we have are opportunities to grow relationships with people that you have never, and may never meet. But how do you start those relationships out? How do you reach out without looking and/or feeling like a stalker?!?

Monday, September 15, 2014

The signs I'm getting older...

1. So, I won some tickets on the radio to attend a Katy Perry concert....boy oh boy, did I feel like I was old and out of place! The first guy that played was wearing this dress/moo-moo thing that had a collar...and leggings. For the life of me I could not figure out what he was thinking when he got dressed before the concert. INSTA-OLD.

2. There came a time in my life where sleeping started to hurt! I'm not sure at what age, all I know is that when I wake up, I sound like a rice crispy (snap, crackle and pop!) and I hurt in places that make no sense. Have you seen the way children can fall asleep?!? and they wake up bouncy and fine! Geesh.

3. I changed my email address to a serious one! No more coolchickypie2001 hahaha...

4. All of my sports hero's have retired...and sports just aren't the same!

5. You know you're getting old when you're talking to your friends and all the stories start with, "remember when..."

6. I've got to scroll to get to my birth year in a drop down box!

7. I started to like foods that I didn't like before.

8. I started choosing clothes that are comfortable rather than clothes that are stylish.

9. I went to my son's middle school open house and all I could think is, "WOW his teachers are young!"

10. I brag to my friends at work about how early I got to go to bed last night...and they're envious!

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Would You be friends with YOU?

    So last week...I get a text from my best friend. It simply said "Just so you know, I'd punch someone in the face for you" HA! That's how I know we're really friends :) Unfortunately our schedules haven't allowed for us to spend a whole lot of time together...and her comment kind of came out of left field, but I didn't put too much into it.

    I ran into her in the grocery store parking lot later in the week and she says, "I have to tell you something, but you have to promise not to keep asking who said it." Of course, I promised...and she proceeded to tell me, "remember when I texted you and said I'd punch someone in the face for you? Weeeellllll, I just lost a friend just then because of you guys." I questioned what happened and she said that she was talking to someone and they told her, "I'm surprised that you and your husband are friends with them. I just didn't think you were the kind of people to hang out with those kind of people." She immediately said, "What do you mean, those kind of people?!? Do you know them? Do you know that her husband would jump in front of a moving vehicle to save my kid? Do you know that she is and has been there for anything I can possibly need? You must not know them!" Who ever she was talking to said, "I see the kind of people that come in and out of their house...I just didn't think you'd be friends with people like that".

    All of this is made more funny, because the house that they're talking about, isn't even mine. I don't live there. My dad lives there. My husband works for my dad....A BUSINESS IS RUN out of the garage. Can you always control what you customers look like? Just check out Of course you can't.

    It's funny how quick people can jump to conclusions...but it definitely made me question if looking from the outside in, would I be friends with me?

p.s. I'm super grateful that I've got a friend who would stand up for me that way :) I love her!